[Crackpot comments in brackets. Soon the shortest day of the year comes, when us yeti sons should feel closest to our kind and most distant from the civic mind. By the time this posts the fallow dawn of the Third Year of the Crispy Christ, Floyd shall be here. The novel I plan on writing in January is about working class Christian resistance to corporate internationalists eradicating medical heresy circa 2050.]

Hello James,

I've just donated 15 USD on your website. When you confirm their arrival, would you mind sending me the draft of Beasts of Arуas? I read Blue-eyed Daughter of Zeus, didn't get everything but still liked it.

[This was very kind. The reader is even helping with draft typos!]

Hillbilly chemist time. I noted your use of coffee to calm your seizures. As an unfortunate coffee addict, I combine it with L-Theanine (tip of a tea spoon of the white powder into a mug of coffee). Alone the substance makes you sleepy, with coffee it removes the jitters, leaves only the wakefulness. I use it to stay longuer in the zone, you might want it to sustain larger amounts of caffeine. It's a popular combination in nootropic circles, for its (apparent) complete innocuity.

[I will definitely be looking for L-Theanine.]

I remember vaguely an article I recently read, from some new agey traveller to Peru, gone to meet a proper medicine man in south America. The healer immediately pointed to a "blockage" somewhere, due to overuse of Mary Jane, adding that the locals used it parcimoniously since it makes one "permeable" (e.g. to bad influences). Tobacco, however, they smoke liberally as it does the opposite. Borrowing a nicotine patch/chewing gum from one of your hosts should be a cheap experiment.

[It is an irony that I have been careful not to use blood vessel construction agents like tobacco and coffee, not starting coffee until age 43, in order to maintain maximum cardio ability, and now, in my decline, I am seeking constriction to counteract this neurologically triggered dilation.]

I'm not saying your neurological disorder that no physician can explain is caused by forcibly awakened ESP slave children in some government compound, but only because it sounds crazy.

[I would be honored if this is the case.]

What I am saying is that if you like the Bible, Philip K. Dick and end-of-19th-century seers, then you may like Rudolf Steiner. His work has been peeking out of the memory hole for a few years now, a lot of it available as free audio books. Juicy bit, from 1917:

"I have told you that the spirits of darkness are going to inspire their human hosts, in whom they will be dwelling, to find a vaϲϲine that will drive all inclination toward spirituality out of people’s souls when they are still very young, and this will happen in a roundabout way through the living body. Today, bodies are vaϲϲinated against one thing and another; in future, children will be vaϲϲinated with a substance which it will certainly be possible to produce, and this will make them immune, so that they do not develop foolish inclinations connected with spiritual life – ‘foolish’ here, or course, in the eyes of materialists."

The free audio material is here:

Winter is good time for introspection, so my recommendation is his introductory book, Knowledge of the Higher Worlds and Its Attainment:

Faxxination still, from the Greek Orthodox Christian side this time:

Some of the important parts:

[relayed from a brother who took the first shot] "Day and night I constantly saw Satan in front of me, his face 20mm distance from mine. I went to sleep at night, and felt him hugging me, and I would get cold all over. I would read the Salutations (Χαιρετισμούς) to the Virgin Mary and I would feel as if my blood was burning in my veins. I felt a foreign presence within me and it was judging me."

[I have a close friend who has had very negative results from this injection. From my small sample, it seems that the people who have grown sickest from it are highly intelligent skeptical types, as if there is something particularly counter to free thinking in it. The much less healthy folks who believe the news, have not reported bad side effects to me. Those who have are free thinkers since plagued by nightmare or its echo.]

"To a faithful person of God death does not exist, this is the reality. We have forgotten this and we presently fear death. Not only do we fear death, we also fear being fined, possible imprisonment, and prosecution. In NO case can a person call themselves a Christian if they fear death. When a person fears dying, they become an idolater or an atheist."

[Beautifully complete statement of modern metro-physics. I will avail of Steiner when I have regular wifi. Thank you so much for that. These fiendish vampires are tampering with our very design.]

This is preached publicly, and the national TV is working overtime to gaslight them of course. People are told to unmask as they enter monasteries or even some churches. So there's still hope. If Steiner is right, things look ugly on your side because you are literally walking on Satan's turf, among his chosen people, who are being prepared for the coming of his incarnation.

[I see hope that some humans will survive the zombie imposition matrix every day. I also see, every day, many many folks alone and in cars wearing masks, walking in the fresh air, wearing masks. I suspect that this is a psychological Great Flood, a kind of Noah event of the mind that will separate the soulful social chaff from the consumable human grain. I intend to remain unpalatable to the taste of the slathering beast so many of those I care about actually witlessly worship. What a fascinating time to be a writer. I am blessed. The main difference I see between my heathen view and the Christian view, is that the supernatural agents of the Christian God outnumber the Fallen Third. My view is darker, that only a fraction of the heavenly host serves The Creator and that most of Heaven is now aligned with Hel as predacious eaters of human souls. My ambition in afterlife is to poison my devourer or at the least, taste bad. [1]]

I Hope the winter soothes your spirit.

-Dimitri

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Thank you, Dimitri.

The gray of winter has tended to be a healing time and I hope to complete some worthy work in The Captain’s camper, down the way from The Colonel’s Grief Locker.

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Notes

-1. I have no desire to bring any person to my view of the metaphysical. I am just explaining my view. This disturbs my Christian friends, that I reject the idea of my Salvation and tempt Damnation in seeking Oblivion. Of course, the atheists and the satanists are very religious, believing more fanatically that there is no God than baptists believe that there is one, and use the threat of Oblivion to seek Salvation on earth just as the church uses the threat of Damnation to sell the more sensible Salvation of the after life. The atheists contend that only Oblivion awaits. The Christians contend that only Damnation and Salvation await. I contend that all three post life states await. To the extent that I entertain the notion of reincarnation, I do so as an aspect of Damnation.